I can’t believe how big you’re getting. Sometimes it feels so long since you were born and you were so tiny, sometimes it feels hardly any time at all. One thing is for sure, I can’t imagine life without you and I’m so glad to have you in it.
I remember family coming to visit us on the day that you were born and bringing some 0-3 months sized clothes they’d bought as a gift. I looked at you in your little elephant sleepsuit which was newborn size and too big on you and thought “wow, I can’t believe you’re ever going to fit in that!” Yet here we are, four and a bit months later and they’re too small for you.
It has gone so fast and in many ways I feel like we’ve had time stolen from us – the week you were ill, the week you had your operation and the week my anxiety problems peaked. I just enjoy every moment I spend with you. You’re so much more aware now than you used to be and so intelligent.
I’ve watched you discover your hands and gain control of them, I’ve watched you smile, I’ve watched you babble away to your toys, I’ve watched you learn new skills each and every week. You become more aware of everything around you all the time.
You are no longer my tiny little baby who just eats, sleeps, wees and poops. You are now your own little person who is so cheeky and gets such delight from Mummy and Daddy saying “KISSES!” and kissing all over your little head and cheeks. You’ve learned to roll over now, are getting your first teeth, have grown much more hair and have learned to play with rattles. I’m almost afraid to blink in case I miss something; you’re changing so much all the time, right in front of me.
I’m excited to see you continue to grow – you found your right foot earlier this week so I’m sure it won’t be long before you find the left one too and try to eat them both. When we eat or use our phones with you on our laps, you try to steal what we’re holding. When crisp packets make their crackling noises, your face is filled with such wonder.
Mummy is always busy, running around and doing washing and different things. But sometimes she has to remember to just pause and watch. Mummy watches you smiling in your sleep and listens to your cute little squeaking sounds, she takes the time to not just change your nappy but looks at your sweet little feet and toes and she watches the look of determination on your face as you try to coordinate your arms and legs when you’re on your tummy.
The thing is, you’ve already grown so much right in front of my eyes. You won’t be as little tomorrow as you are today and that will continue day after day until once again I have to move you into the next size of clothing and wonder how on earth you grew out of the last size so quickly.
I just treasure every moment with you and am sad that it’s all going so fast already, yet I can’t wait to see the person you become.
All my love always, Mummy xxx
15 thoughts on “A letter to my daughter at 4 & a bit months old”
Aww, how cute is she?! I can never quite believe how fast they grow. I look at newborn baby grows now, and think there’s no way bobsy was ever that small. Never mind Michael, who is an almost 6 year old giant! But they were both in “small baby” size when they were born. It passes far too quickly! x
Thank you 🙂 Autumn fitted best in small baby clothes when she was born and was just coming out of newborn clothes at 2 months – she’s just got so big all of a sudden these last two and a bit months, it’s crazy! I’m sure she’ll also be a 6 year old giant before I know it, it’s going too fast already x
Yes, it really does go by far too quickly. I used to stop what I was doing and watch you and wish that I could pause moments forever. Here we are in 2017 and now you are Autumn’s Mummy and not my little girl anymore. Life really is to be treasured; every breath and each heartbeat is truly miraculous. I look forward to each new page of the journey that I share with you both …………
She’s so cute and what a lovely look back. Poppy turns one in a few weeks and I don’t know where the tiny baby we brought home from hospital has gone!! Thanks for sharing for #marvmondays
What a beautiful name and what adorable photos of her, she is certainly photogenic!!! I miss those baby days, my little one has certainly found her vocal chords as she’s screams, ahem I mean sing to me me. Enjoy those moments. #MarvMondays
Thank you 🙂 I’m already wondering where my tiny baby has gone, goodness knows how I’ll be feeling at the age Poppy is! Thanks for commenting 🙂 x
Thank you 🙂 Haha, Autumn is giving the screaming (*cough* singing) a good go already! Thanks for commenting x
Aww, beautiful letter, and pictures – what a cutie. It’s scary how fast it goes by. I still remember my first being that tiny like it was yesterday and he’s nearly 8 now!
Thank you :)It’s gone so fast already, I’m sure she’ll also be 8 before I know it! Thanks for your comment xx
Isn’t it strange. The time goes by so quickly yet it feels like you’ve been together your whole lives! I can’t image what it would be like to not have Rory but as he turns one next week I feel like the year has just passed me by! Autumn is such a gorgeous little girl! Beautiful name for a beautiful baby xx #marvmondays
Aww, thank you so much 🙂 Yes, time passes very strangely. As you said, I can’t imagine life without her now! I expect Rory’s 1st birthday will be quite an emotional day for you.
Thank you for commenting xx
It goes by in a flash doesn’t it! Treasure every moment #marvmondays
It certainly does! Thank you for your comment x
Awww, beautifully written. My little boy has just hit this age, it’s hard to believe that a few shorts months ago we were talking to a bump and now a little baby! I bet she’s keeping you busy now she’s older too!
Thanks, it’s amazing, isn’t it? It’s hard to believe I wrote this almost 10 months ago. She seems to keep us busier and busier with each passing month 🙂